Thank you for the replies ladies.
After posting I realised it may have come accross a little insensitive to those having treatment. I'm sorry if anyone viewed it that way. I'm just so excited.
I think my role as a foster carer has prepared myself & my family , well as much as it can do. We are used to loving & nuturing little ones fully knowing that 1 day they will leave us either to return home or to go to new adoptive parents. I see surrogacy as an extension of this - I can love & nurture an embie until it is ready to meet it's parents
I love fostering & I'm all for adoption but I also believe that its ok for people to want to be parents to a new baby/ their own biological .The system in this country makes adopting little babies more difficult. Don't get me wrong fostering hasn't made us hard in anyway but we have toughened up a little over the years. We are a very loving family , we are as honest about situations as we can be with our children. Whom I must say are beautiful, loving & empathetic. They knew about my egg donation & my IVF , they even helped with injections & visited the clinic. I would hope to meet a couple with whom we could have an open realtionship & that would become family friends.
I have spoken to my husband & he fully supports me , he did question why I didn't just want a quiet life?! He knows how much I love pregnancy, I'm very lucky that previously I have sailed through them. He knows that although I have donated my eggs , I do not have any emotional feelings towards my recipients baby. I do think about the baby as I will do when I donate again next month but its my recipients baby & any baby I carry for intended parents wouldn't be mine either.
I have researched further today. I'm a little wary of agencies as although I know it costs money I'd hate for anyone to be exploited. It seems though that in the UK this is the way forward. Clinics only get involved once a surrogate & intended parents have come to an arrangement. So I have applied for some information packs. I have also spoken to a lovely lady who has 3 birth children & has had 3 surrogate babies. She has offered to share her experiences with me in more detail but she sounds so positive & proud.
I wish all of you on here lots os love & luck on you journeys. I know some are easier than others, I hope to ease the pain of at least 1 couple at what they must see as their last chance of becoming a family. xxxx