Well ladies I am still in the same situation as before! Not much has changed! I still feel that going through another Ivf cycle is out of the question and my mind is still focusing on adoption. I look at mums when they are out and think how lucky they are to have their own child then I second think to myself as actually that may not be their birth child and they may have adopted too. Other than close friends and family, no1 would automatically think that the child wasn't ours biologically! I still feel we would be better suited to a young baby as this will be our 1st and maybe only child and I want to experience as many aspects as possible of bringing a life in to the world.
Everytime someone at work talks about their child and what they said or did it feels me with sadness to think I may not be able to talk about our child.
Dh still hasn't come round to the idea of thinking about adoption but we have made some progress
He said I am rushing things and it wasn't until our last failed IVF that I actually considered adoption as an option and I totally understand this and he is completly right but I feel I need to explore this option further now to re focus my mind, to keep me busy and to make me feel that the road to having a child has ended!
We then agreed that if in 12mths time I still feel the same that we could start the ball rolling to gathering more offiicial information like asking for info pack and going to a meeting
I am over the moon and he has made my day!

I can't ask for more than that!
Jilly-bean.xxx